what can separate us from the love of Jesus Christ?
nothing this world can even change
though i once was lost, now i've been given grace
it's a mystery, that i would not chase.

You, You, You are are all this heart is beating for
Jesus You all this heart is longing for.

i dont understand it, how you love the way you do
even when ive fallen you always bring me back to You.
what can seperate us from the love of Jesus Christ?

so, this is the song i worshiped to on the way to church yesterday, and boy, let me tell you it was a very freeing, tears flowing time. that is probably the thing i love the best about days, being able to worship God anywhere, anytime. this just happened to be on the way to worship with other believers.

yesterday was one of the hardest days since Dad went to be with Jesus. after arriving at church and listening to the Bible study-which i cant even tell what triggered the thoughts-but i just sat and cried. thinking about the elderly couples there and their life-long relationships just made me sad for my mom...i reached over and squeezed Michael's hand and just gave him the "i am drowning here and really need a rescue" he scooted over and put his arm around me and just protected me. what a man! If it would have been just women, i would have shared my heart. good thing Anita is starting a women's cell group! YES! sharing time for me.

Michael continued to protect me through the pre church chatter by just standing there and being close. when i saw mom, i had to tell her how i was feeling. then i felt bad, because i know she was feeling bad that i was feeling so bad. at one point she said she wanted to go home, i am so glad she didnt.

then the music started...

i could see and hear dad in the 2 introductory songs, swaying his body back and forth and raising his fist high in the air in surrender to Jesus. i know he is fully aware now of the power in the songs we can but sing about. butt dust... :) stuelke-speak

then it was my turn to be the protector, i just stood there by mom during the greeting while wonderful friends/family members came to share in the tears and human longings that dad wouldnt even be able to understand now. he is free in every sense of the world. (that was a pun on every sense of the word, by the way)

by the sermon i was feeling better, there were many Dad-ism jokes and that made me feel better. i am glad for my sense of humor to stave off feelings - stave it off 1, 2 ,3. (stuelke-speak)

after church, we came home to get changed and headed for garage sales, which were flops! at home we washed the car and did some more yard work. i think i'm gonna like it here, again subtle Annie reference, for those who dont know Stuelke-speak.

we had a nice Sunday here at 515, now i am off to work to have fun this monday morning, have a great day!